We won't be mailing out Christmas cards this year so I decided to "blog" our greeting. Yes, a personal note might seem more sincere, but I dare you to find a cuter Christmas elf!!
"Monkey-ing" around with nieces Rachel and Sarah
Anna and Kaden enjoying birthday gifts!
In not-so-fun news, yes, Mike is still seeking employment. It's been a long year. It's hard some times, but gosh...when I think of all the ways we have been provided for, all the lessons God has taught us this year, I am overwhelmed. Let me share just a few:
1.) We are okay. Mike, Kaden and I are healthy and happy. Although I know Mike would prefer to have gainful employment right now, it has been special to have him around. His bond with Kaden has really grown over the past several months and I know the K-man will have to go through some major adjustment when his "Dada" isn't around during the day anymore.
2.) Mike and I have been convicted that it's easy to be generous when you have money. And it's easy to come up with excuses and be stingy when you're stressed about finances. We know that many of you are in the same place or worse. We are trying to learn to be thankful, no matter what is going on, and no matter how much longer it takes to find the right job. (I confess that I am still working on this one! :) )
3.) Personally, I have been convicted that I try to control things too much. I know that's what we always hear in sermons or self-help books, it even sounds cliche. But there are parts of my life where I thought I was just being a good manager, forward thinking, doing diligent planning. God has shown me that I can quickly cross the line into frustration and not letting go. Examples?? Okay, well don't tell anyone I told you, but:
--Mike getting a job. "Lord, hasn't it been long enough? I have a really smart husband! I happen to think he's a great guy! I know the economy stinks, but sheesh..."
--My fertility. I thought we would have more kids by now, definitely biologically but even through adoption. It doesn't seem to be God's plan for us, at least for now.
--Resentment and bitterness in my life. I heard a great sermon months ago. One statement made by Metropolitan Jonah pierced my soul. "If we harbor any resentment or bitterness towards others, we will never grow spiritually, we can never grow closer to God." I immediately thought of some people in my life where I've continued to try to control circumstances, waiting, (with righteous indignation), for so-called "justice" to be done. This has been the hardest lesson for me this year. But I thank God that He loves me enough to humble me and help me see this ball and chain I have wrapped around myself. Do you know how freeing it is to identify a sin in your life and admit it, try to let it go, and seek forgiveness? It's hard, even painful. I still have a LONG way to go, but its also like no other joy on earth.
Okay, that's probably enough. Or maybe it's TMI. I guess I'm more vulnerable this year. Sometimes I think, "Wow! Its been a hard year". But then I think" Wow, we made it! We made it through the year! We're still here! And we still have joy and love in our lives! Wow!"
So, speaking of joy and love, I hope that each of you has a joyful Christmas. More than that, I hope you find joy in the coming year. I also hope you are further along than me and more open to hear what God may be trying to show you. It's not easy, humbling even, but its SO worth it.
Lastly, I hope these videos will give you joy as they did me.
Photo Sharing - Video Sharing - Photo Printing
Photo Sharing - Video Sharing - Photo Printing
Photo Sharing - Video Sharing - Photo Printing
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
--Susan





